Keep going on
There’s day of rain, but it’s up to you to decide whether you’ll dance in the storm or wait for it to pass.
When they judge you…
I’ve always seen myself in a negative way, so it makes sense that I cared too much about what other people thought.
Thoughts like: I’m too fat for this. I’ll never be able to do a push-up again. My ankle’s too messed up to work out.
They felt true for a long time, but honestly, they were mostly excuses. Not excuses to judge myself, but excuses that kept me stuck in the same place. And it’s okay to acknowledge them. They were real for who I was at the time.
But now I’m asking myself something simple: why?
Why did I let things get this far? Why did I stop trying?
Just asking those questions feels like taking a small step forward.
It’s really not me versus the world. It’s me versus the old version of me who gave up. And the moment I start acting on the questions I’m asking, things begin to shift. Not magically, not overnight.
I’ve been overweight and sedentary for almost a decade. It’s going to take time to undo that. But that’s fine. Growth isn’t supposed to be instant.
What matters is that I’m finally starting. Just one step, one question, one small decision at a time.
“The moment you question who you’ve become is the moment you start becoming someone new.”
Right now I feel…
Like I’m growing. Physically, yes. But I’ve become more mature. I can manage my energy way better than before. I can identify what will drain it and chose to protect it or go all-in if it benefits me.
I’ve always been good at noticing patterns and follow my intuition.
What Did I learned today?
If you act busy at work, people tend to leave you alone. Try it.
What Challenge did I face?
I’m a lot more sore from my other workouts than before. Maybe I trained harder, but it’s a deep pain in the chest. Which is quite normal since I did an upper body workout. I may try a massage gun.
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