The Reset I Didn’t Want but Needed

The Weight of One Setback

I keep telling myself it’s just a step back. One problem, not the start of a chain reaction. But the fear of things piling up is real. I don’t want a simple issue to become the slide that throws me off the arc.

Sunday is my weekly reset: groceries, meal prep for my fiancée and me, lunches and dinners for the week. And honestly… it’s exhausting. It took an hour of groceries, three hours of prep, and another hour for dinner. When you already have a busy schedule, that kind of block drains you fast.

I need to find a better system. Even if it means copy-paste meals and bulk batches, maybe that’s what I need to make this sustainable.

On the positive side, I hit my calorie and protein goals for the whole week. That felt good. But then some habits crept back in. I started bingeing social media again and gaming more than usual. I don’t know if I’m bored or if I’m just mindlessly escaping. Maybe both.

And then comes the big one.

I’m finally putting my ego aside and getting myself a CPAP machine.
This is the one thing that has been blocking my progress. Every professional I talked to said the same thing. My diet is good. My exercise level went up. I’m less stressed overall. But severe sleep apnea makes everything harder, no matter how well I perform during the day.

It has been five years since I got my diagnosis. But back then, at 25, I felt ashamed. I didn’t want the label. I didn’t want the machine. Now I just wish I started earlier.

This is going to be a real game changer for my health and progress.
It’s time.